Knowing What I Don’t Know (and Liking It)

When I try to understand God, my finite intelligence reveals its limitations. My feeble thoughts resonate with the words of Ecclesiastes 8:16,

16 “Then I saw all that God has done.No one can comprehend what goes on under the sun. Despite all their efforts to search it out, no one can discover its meaning. Even if the wise claim they know, they cannot really comprehend it.” My lack of understanding can feel overwhelming, but maybe it’s a good thing. God is, after all, God, and I am not, and that’s enough. Instead of wishing I knew more, I can say, as the words of Psalm 73:25 tell me, “Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you.”

As I learn to trust God completely, I begin to have a sense of rest in Him. Life may seem out of control, but God has everything under control. My lack of understanding leads me to a place where I trust God and not my own logic or “wisdom.” Many situations are frightening, or at least uncomfortable, by my fear and discomfort put me in a position to depend only on God and to seek after His presence, promises, and provisions.

It’s easy for me to get stressed out, anxious, sad, and exhausted, but then I remember that I don’t need to understand the ways of God because they’re impossible for me to understand! My own life experience makes this clear, but more importantly, the Bible tells me: “Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable his judgments, and his paths beyond tracing out!” (Romans 11:33). God’s ways are higher than my ways so I can trust my all-knowing, all-powerful God. I can rest in the fact that God is still (and always will be) good, loving, and wise in everything He does, even if I don’t understand much at all.
 
Troy Burns